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Chapter One: It Begins
I came into this world on October 31st 1962, to a family that should never have had children. If my mother were alive today and had a psychologist look at her, they would deem her bipolar and more. My mother was a chameleon with the ability to scream, throw, and...
Chapter Two: EMDR
As I stated earlier, I had used EMDR as a form of therapy. The first time they did it, they wanted to see if it would pull my memory. The second time they used the EMDR, it took me back to about four years old. The third time they used it, we went between 2.5 and 4...
Chapter Three: Junior high
By the time I had made it to junior high school, my body was already going through stress and trauma, and I had no idea how to deal with it. I was cutting with a compass on my legs and on my upper arms, where people could not see. This gave me something else to think...
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Controlling thoughts
There are days for me when concentrating is like being on a Ferris wheel and a merry-go-round all at the same time. No matter how hard you try to go to the racetrack that is your brain, it just scrambles, jumps, and goes everywhere. In my head, when I talk and get...
The White Negro
In life, how many times do you have to empty a can before the garbage is all gone? The irony of life is that one never knows when life will kick out, and irony will kick in. To know that you have tried to be what everybody wanted, expected, drove you to be, even...
April Fools
This last month has been very hard. I have been sick since before Christmas of 2025, and now I am having another body flare. Stress is a wonderful thing. This is April 1, 2026, and this is not an April Fool’s joke. This past Sunday, we had a family dinner, which we do...
April 4 – Easter
For the first time in 21 years, I will now be spending Easter by myself. When you are told by your partner and wife of 19 years that she is moving back home to the East Coast, which is New Brunswick, and she doesn’t want you to go back with her, you are alone now. So,...
Wedding Vows
Tell me if wedding vows are still valid? Do they mean anything, or are they just words that sound nice during the wedding? To love, honour, and respect. Through sickness and health. For richer, for poorer. What does a person do when they’re told that because they’re...